Hard. not to cry.

all of a sudden.
i'm booked for the whole week.
for something i didnt really expect.

my uncle jus passed away.
he was only 40 this year.
the exact reason for his death.
was unexpected.

he was always the nonsensical one among all the relatives.
always cracking lame jokes.
all of a sudden.
he leaves. just like that.
i didnt even get to see him before he went away.
it's been 3 months since i last saw him.
i really didnt want our first meeting after suuch a long time.
to be the last meeting.

he was a really nice uncle.
he was still so young.
he jus had a 6 mth old baby girl.
and a 16 year old son that really need him.
his 14 year old daughter still needs his love.
how can he jus leave liddat?

i tot i would cry.
cos when i heard de news.
i was. totally. stunned.
didnt know how to react.

still unable to accept the fact that he left.
tot he would still come laughing and talking while walking to the living room.
tot that he's outside golf-ing with my dad and other uncles.

even after i see his body.
i jus really wished that this was all a terrible dream.
a dream that i would eventually wake up from.

oh well.
suan lers.
the dead cant be revived.
i know it.
and i'll try to accept it.
i try to smile while sending him off.

and oh ya.
really psps hors.
bei ws and jeremy.
last min cannot go for the movie trip with u all.
i really wanted to watch HERO with u all.

i'm oso really sorry towards boon wei ray n syl.
cos i cant go for the mon training.
know that it'll somehow cause some inconvenience.
gomen-neh. ><

hao bahs.
hafta go down again lers.
the next post may not be soon.

Takkaire guys.
smile more and cherish the fact that u're living. XD

TIRED. hurting.

konbawa.
i'm so tired. so hungry. T_T
waiting for my wanton to be cooked. XD
ARGH. HUNGRY!!!
painful oso. ><
my right knee is like.
a huge patch of 黑青 T_T
hais... LOLOLOL.

today's training was LONG.
from 9 to ehhs. 5.
LOLOLOL.
finally mastered the both hands ferris wheel.
WHOOO~ haha.
jeremy came to help out.
HAHA.
budden he was kinda sian-ed.
hees. ps wor~ make u so wu liao. ><

luckily.
tml no more training lers!!~
HAHAHAHAHA XDDD
so happy sia. can rest a while more. X33

celebrating sylvia's bdae tml.
with bei and lapkan.
singing K again! LOLOL
seems to be the most frequent place outing this year.
HAHA.
but i love the lunch dere. XD it's nice. MUAHAHA.

fri got practise again. budden until 1 nia. XDD
after that is the LONG-AWAITED mahjong session.
HEES. so excited over it sia. XD
finally can see jie again. XD

sat's going for esther's church event. hees.
well. so looking forward to see her again. XDD
she's GONNA DANCE OSO!!!
haha. must go wor. HEES.
lets make it an outing. XD

sun's another outing day. HAHA.
gng out to watch HERO with bei and jeremy.
oh man. hope my money would be enough. ><

I WANNA WATCH ENCHANTED!!!
anyone to jio me go watch? HAHAHA.
the show looks funny. HAHA.
at least the trailer. LOL.

oh yea!!
my food's READY. MUAHAHA.
dun get too 羡慕 wor. XD
hao ba. wanna go enjoy my meal lers.
hees.
and 顺便擦跌打酒 again. ><

Takkaire wor. XD

ARGH. enjoybutpainful.

hiies. XD minna-san.
had another fancy drill training today.
it was hmmm. fun. XD
budden...
my leg muscles were hurting like siao. ><
the aftermath of yst's training.
and also, the consequence of not excercising. HAHAHA.
it was really 酸痛. the 2nd worst i ever had.
RAHHHH~
害到我today walk like penguin lorhs.
zhen shi de. cant even walk properly. LOL.

took 87 to bedok.
so sat on de bus for arnd 1 hr.
den i cldnt stand up. HAHAHA.
forced myself to stand up.
and the pain was 恐怖.
ever since dat, i stood whenever i can.
尽量 dun sit down. HAHAHA.
cos sitting down is a torture.
and standing up after dat was even WORSE. LOL.

finally. learnt double ferris.
hees. was like. SUDDENLY i know. HAHA.
kinda weird. hees.
budden now hafta practise it using left hand. =.=
didnt knee down today at all.
i cant even go halfway down. HAHAHA.
jus stopped after bending a lil. den stood up liaos. LOL.

tml's gonna be a full day training. from 9 to dunno wad time.
hais.. hope the pain will go off by tml. ><
going to 擦跌打酒 like mad today. X33
my right hand got blueblack lers.
sadded. it's painful der los.
doing the left-handed ferris wheel.
den the rod jus "PIAK" onto the palm.
and de bony der jiu 黑青 liaos.
hais... PAIN PAIN PAIN~~ LOL.
sylvia oso got one. XDDD HAHAHAHAHA.

budden it was fun afterall. XD
hope the effects look nice. ><
if not jiu 白练 lers.
HAHAHA.

gonna ask my mom help me 擦跌打酒 lers.
hees.
Takkiare. XD

ACHING. body and heart.

my whole body's aching.
erm. ok. not WHOLE body.
but mainly the legs.
RAHHHHS.. all cos of the cosplay performance.
so sian diao.
learning fancy drill now.
tot it would be easy lorhs.
hais..

my knee's scrapped.
it hurts lo.
budden not as bad as sylvia's, which was bleeding.
so jia lat lo. hais...
think i produced a lota 噪音 today.
keep dropping the rod.
RAHHHS~ dun think can ever perfect dat ferris wheel thingy.
it's jus so darn difficult. =.=

today.
my 亲爱 de handphone pouch SPOILED again.
ARGH... i last time 好不容易 revived it lo.
now certified dead liaos. HAHAHA.
cos the whole stretch of zip is like.
almost being ripped out by me. -.- HAHAHA.
i was trying to 拯救它 budden too bad. it cldnt survive my handling. LOLOLOL. XD

i shall go buy another one tml.
HEES.
ARGH!!!~ tml got traning for it again.
hais...
i wanted to practise at home der lorhs.
in de end i cldnt really rmb wad i learnt.
HAHAHA. so 放弃！LOLOLOLOL.
tml den refresh memory again. HEES.

read finish SDK book 30 liaos.
so fast lo.
tot i cld like read it over the week.
seems impossible. HAHAHA.
ADDICTED. sian. -.-

thinking of changing my blogskin again.
HAIS... so boring nowadays.
dun have de mood to do hw oso. -.-
SLACKING!!~ my best hobby of all time. XD

shall go finish my 绝代双骄 book 2. XDD
Takkire. X33

nothingtoWATCHnow

hey heys!!
sure got miss me ba. HAHAHA
lao shi shuo. i'm kinda lazy to blog. HAHA
budden since nothing to do.
so come post a while. hees

watched finish shui yue feng yun lers.
this show IS NICE DER lo.
once again.
LIN FENG IS SHUAI DER.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
nice story plot too. XD
liu song ren, deng cui wen and miao qiao wei is all shi li pai yan yuan
HAHA. all so pro der lorhs

watched finish huan huan ai oso lers.
HAHAHA. hmmm.
dunno ehs. maybe cos of shui yue feng yun ba.
think that this show is ok only.
dun really have much climax
budden one thing for sure.
this show is super tian mi der.
HAHAHA.
initially felt that he jun xiang this time more shuai
cos when he smile arh. REALLY cute nehs~ HAHA
budden in de end still find wang chuan yi more handsome. hees

well well.
des's now in beijing.
sure leng si ta. HAHA.
me n bei went to send her off at airport.
so WOKE UP AT 5 in de morning lorhs. HAHA
gan dong ba. XDDD slept at 1am ehs. HAHA
den suddenly realise i now cannot tahan 4 hrs of sleep only lers.
HAHA. dunno shi hao or huai lo.

den arh. me n bei tgt sure stupid stuffs happen again
we were like. LOST in airport. LOLOLOL
took 27 to airport.
den alighted.
den walked in the wrong direction and side. -.-
when we like. the day before dat jus walked from the entrance to the bus stop.
hais... tian arh. it's kinda xie men. HAHAHA
finally. went to the right entrance.
took the lift.
den found ourselves in a NO PASSENGERS AIRPORT. -.-
only workers.
ARGH. we landed ourselves in TERMINAL 3.
den..... couldnt find our way out to T2.
in de end asked a cleaner.
SIAN SIA.
it was so malu can. LOLOLOLOL.
finally. we got to T2!!! saw lotsa lotsa people. HAHA.
den i was relieved. LOLOLOL. finally got to our destination sia.
hees. saw des off successfully.
and had our MAC breakfast!! hees.

oh lastly.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! YILIN. HEES.
hao la. HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY. hees.
stay happy and chio always wor~ hees.
my ke ai de lao gong. XDD
must treat me better arhs XD

hao ba.
gtg sleep lers.
hees. my eye's tired of the crying for huan huan ai's last ep. XD
niites. =D

REGRETTED.

regretting.
regretted.

ARGH.
the worse mistake of my life.
going out with my mom today.
OMG OMG OMG.
can i turn back the time?
T_T

argh.
hypnosis doesnt work.
WHY WHY????
why doesnt it work?
die die.
trying to hypnotise myself.
but it jus wont work.
sian diao.

dun think i'll be able to have a nice sleep tonight.
I'M SO SURE TO HAVE A NIGHTMARE.
thinking of ways to solve it.
but none seems to be feasible.
ARGH. so troubled.
*cries*

AHHHHHHHH~~~~~
i'm going crazy.

ok. chen wo hai qing xing.

To Jeremy: Happy Birthday wor~~ HEES. officially 17 liaos. HAHAHA. stay cheerful always. XD

To Des: hey heys. sorry for that comment in the tagging test. was jus trying to joke. dun take it too serious kayys? ARGH. treat you to soya bean some time. or Coke oso can. XD hees. dun feel insulted wor~~ >< Shall sing u GOMEN NE juliet sometime. X3

okok. now back to being crazy.
ARGH. cant believe i so ai mei sia.
sian diao.
SUAN LER.
I SHALL FACE ALL THE CONSEQUENCES.
MUAHAHA.
tan he rong yi. -.-

let me jus hide in one corner to zhong mo gu. or draw circles. wadever.

*tsk tsk. how was the date? HEES. u know who i'm talking abt. XDDD

Takkaire anyway. HEES. niites.

DRUNK.

weeeee~
today. met up with bei in de morn.
hais...
dunno wad's happening to me sia.
consecutive 3 DAYS zhun zhun 4.30am will wake up ders.
RAHH~~
of cos i will continue sleeping. HAHAHAHA.

drank Breezer at arnd 12.
den drank HOOCH at arnd 3.
HEES.
I'M NOT DRUNK OKAYS.
budden arh.
hmmmmm.. felt like vomiting while going to Heartland mall.
hais.. mao leng han oso lorhs.
maybe cos of the alcohol?
HAHAHAHAHA.
went home SLEEP until so shuang sia. HEES.

NOW AT AMY'S house.
HEES.
doing nothing lorhs.
drinking hmmm. pomegranate[?]
hahaha. tastes a lil weird. LOLOLOLOL.

so excited sia. XD tml gng to Des's hse to do my costume.
HAHAHAHA. wonder how my costume will turn out. HEES.
ARGH ARGH.
so sian now.
nothing to blog. -.-
LALALALALALA~~~
rushing AMY to finish reading Samurai Deeper Kyo.
HAHAHA.
我好闷哦.
好闷好闷好闷.
RAHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

suan lers.
dunno wad to write liaos.
TAKKAIRE.

LOVEproblems. fashion.

HAHAHAHA.
by the SINCERE request of my LOVER, bei.
i'm here to post. hees.
and coincidentaly. this is my 111th post.
hees.

hao de.
nothing much to post la. actually.
so main thing is yst's clique outing lorhs.
HAHAHAHA.
hmmmm...
i think i was kinda sian diao initially.
dun really know the reason why.
maybe i was tired? HMMMMMM. i dun think so.
think it's cos of the LONG LONG bus ride ba.
so LONELY lorhs. no one to pei me.
den i sit until i yao suan bei tong der.
hais... so ke lian. POOR ME. T_T

main highlight: BBQ steamboat at marina bay yst.
hees. the food was. hmmm. ok only.
think it was cos of the atmosphere dat made it nice.
well well.
yu han didnt really eat anything.
SERIOUSLY. i never saw him eating much.
hmmmmm. REALLY abnormal for a guy.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

played truth or dare.
in fact it was more like truth or truth initially.
den ppl got bored.
and changed to dare or dare. HAHAHAHA
well. i was hmm kinda lucky?
well only initially. HEES, tio twice later. hais.. sadded.
bei was like. hmmmm.
didnt tio any.
budden de dares seems to like always include her. HAHAHA.

ray was kinda ke lian yst.
well. it started cos of SOMEONE lorhs.
YES! it's YOU! HAHAHAHA.
well well.
if u dun wish to say it den dun.
cos when u relent.
and start to give ppl hints.
they'll bother u even more. HAHAHAHA.
so yea. LOLOL. dun be soft hearted next time. =D

well well.
bei's NO FRINGE photo seemed to have caused quite a huge commotion yst.
LOLOLOLOL. well.
COS U KEPT INSITING THAT PPL CANT SEE.
so PPL YUE YAO KAN. haha.
wise up gal!!!
my lover cant be so er-hm. SLOW der.

love problems seems to be like.
ARGH. floating everywhere in the air.
ESP in the class now.
yea yea. like a FASHION right now.
and our star.. ta-da.
is my LOVER!! T_T
jing zhen li so qiang sia.
I WILL NOT LOSE!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
well well. bei's now the ban hua. HAHAHA.
well. dang zhi wu kui la.
HEES. REALLY COMPETITIVE wor~
BUT I WILL WIN. WUAKAKAKAKAKAKA.

so yea.
i probably the most mei zi ge to say anything la.
budden... argh.
anyways. jia you ba~ HEES.
if love was so easy.
it wld not have been used as a theme for so many korean shows liaos.
HAHAHAHAHA.
NO LINK. -.-

ok anyway.
jus cheer up guys!!~
hees.
Takkaire. X33

ok. theTAGGINGtest.

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:

1. MONEY? as in. CASH. HAHAHAHAHA. i'm so xian shi.
2. marry one rich guy. that loves me too. X333 somehow links to the first wish. XD
3. eh-to. my mom will never throw my xiao pillow away? LOLOL. i really wish for it.
4. MY BROTHER WILL DOTE ON ME MORE. oh man. prays prays.
5. ARGH. birthday presents almost EVERYDAY? HAHA. all my wishes so fu qian der. XD

Answer the following questions:

1. The person/people who tagged you is/are?

(i) Bei
(ii) Wei Siong
(iii) Boon Wei
(iv) Jeremy

2. Your relationship with him/her is… she’s my…

(i) my sec n JC fren. ehh.. lover? HAHAHA
(ii) my lover's son. hmmm. so that makes him kind of like my son oso? X_X omg.
(iii) MAGIC club president. fren oso. XDD
(iv) JC fren. XD Manga lover too.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you…

(i) hmmm. to bear me a son? LOLOLOL. oh man. i'm gonna get killed. I CANT RMB!!! T_T
(ii) is it me? or is it him? HMMMM. cos dere seems to be nothing that he did for me.
(iii) shd be the balloon flower ba. hees. although it was kind of leh jeh. HEES.
(iv) buying two books of Samurai Deeper Kyo for me. XD thanks.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you…

(i) I LOVE U!!!
(ii) btw did i suan u?? how come no memory of it?? i mean seriously...
(iii) i dun think dere is any. HEES. so PAISEH.
(iv) Chat leh.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she will…

(i) she's already mine. X33 ask me if i miss her more often? LOLOL.
(ii) hmmm. be too shy to even hold my hand. XDDD
(iii) nag at me more often? HAHAHA. didnt mean anything evil. XD
(iv) be traumatised by the fact of it.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be…

(i) BE MORE DARING TO SHOW UR LOVE TO ME!!!!! X33333
(ii) come on! have more courage!! hees. dun get SHY so easily.
(iii) reduce on the nagging parts? be more decisive. =D
(iv) recover from the trauma quickly

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will…

(i) win her back to be my lover. XD with my love of cos.
(ii) jus leave him be.
(iii) boycott MAGIC. MUAHAHAHAHA.
(iv) tell him that he's fan.

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be…

(i) i bao er nai. LOLOLOL.
(ii) cos i kept teasing him abt him being shy easily? HAHA
(iii) cos i stole the CLUB FUND.
(iv) cos i dao-ed him twice

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is…

(i) celebrate her bdae. XD
(ii) help him to be freed of his problems
(iii) help him make the EOY a success
(iv) help him gao qing chu wad exactly he wants

11. Your overall impression of him/her is…

(i) BLUR. GREAT in studies. pretty. stubborn. reliable
(ii) SMART. devoted. sometimes you dian... zi zhao ma fan.
(iii) xi xin. sensitive. leader-ly. sometimes... hmm. complains much. XD
(iv) friendly. xi xin. sociable.

12. How you think people around you feel about you?

fu qian. hua chi. joker. slacker. cute. XDDDD

13. The character that you love of yourself are…

i being optimistic. des say that's cos i didnt go through any da feng da lang. so can stay liddat. budden i like it. XD being simple in thinking. wont kill too much of my brain cells. so can live longer. MUAHAHAHA.

14. On the contrary, the character that you hate of yourself are…

being too hmmm. GREEDY. hees, cos that's wad always make my pockets full of HOLES. hais.. so ke lian der lorhs.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is…

YAMAPI. cos he's SHUAI and TI TIE!!! MUAHAHAHAHA. dat's for being most IDEAL. hees. jus a dream larh. A DREAM.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them…

I LOVE U GUYS TOO. XDDD but dun miss me too much kays? HAHAHAHA.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you…

1. Dede
2. Desireen
3. Vanessa
4. Ying Jie
5. Yilin
6. Raymond
7. Choo Min
8. Amy
9. Khia Peng
10. Lapkan

Who is No.6 having relationship with?

Hmmmm. i think he's songle right now.

Is No.9 a male or female?

Female.

If No.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?

LOLOLOLOL. they dunno each other. BUT. it'll be FUN to see them together. XDDD both oso kinda hmmm. hand legs cant coordinate. HAHAHA

How about No.8 and 5?

eh. they're both females. and dunno each other. HEES.

What is No.2 studying about?

studying? Physics. Chem. CLL. Maths. GP. ART in de future? budden for now shd be half naked guys, shuai ges and comics ba. HAHAHAHAHA.

When was the last time you had a chat with No.3?

Yesterday. After our PW. hees.

What kind of music band does No.8 like?

MI LU BING. likes a range of music la. budden certainly not classical songs. XD

Does No.1 have any siblings ?

Yea. she has a JIE JIE. currently studying abroad.

How about No.7 ?

Yea. JIE JIE oso. hees.

Is No.4 single?

HAHAHAHA. YEA. she's single. MUAHAHAHA.

What is the surname of no.5?

HORSE. HAHAH [MA] hees.

What is the nickname of no.10?

hmmm. i dun think he has any.

What is the hobby of no.4?

reading comics. watching tv. going for MINDS. chatting on the phone. going for K.

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?

They dunno each other. but i think they SHD get along with each other well.

Where is no.2 studying at?

Temasek Junior College. maybe going off to hmm Laciell[?] next year.

Talk something casually about no.1?

MUACKSS!! hees. a really fun and fashionable girl. HAHAHA.

Have you tried developing feelings for no.8?

HOHOHOHOHO. my mom says we're lesbians. so maybe developing towards THAT direction. HEES.




AHHHHH. FINALLY!!! omg. HAHAHA. DONE DONE!!!

bleahBLEAHandbleah

yo! minna san~
feeling well? hees.
today went to niu xhe shui.
hees. with MAGIC club ppl. MUAHAHA
it seems that only me n des managed to finish buying the stuffs we needed.
so EXCITED now sia.
den when i told my mom i'm doing a costume for myself.
she gave those kinda "sian diao" look. -.-
zhen shi de. LOL.

song han's gng to withdraw from the cosplay.
kinda sad lorhs. HAHAHAHA. wanna see him cosplaying as Horo Horo.
hees. think he's too shy?
HAHAHA.

went for movie with des and jeremy.
watched Star Dust.
GREAT movie. X33
kinda.. hmmm. touching? LOL. more of funny larhs.
always so anti climax.
HAHA. nice to watch thou. hees.

went to mac for dinner.
chatted lotsa stuff oso.
chatting abt how chim n abstract des is.
den how jeremy cant survive without interacting with ppl.
den oso. on how i degraded des when she talks to me.
hees. not really my fault can.
HAHAHAHAHA. i tian sheng jiu very fu qian der. HEES.
but i like myself being liddat.
thinking too much isnt good.
LOLOLOLOLOL. so THINK SIMPLE!!!!

oh ya ya. abt the wad tagging stuff. HAHAA.
seems kinda popular right now. HAHA.
i shall go try it later on. in a new post.

hao ba. gng to pei yang de mood to do that chao ji long test.
hees. Takkaire. X33

I'mALIVEokay?

heys!!
know a lot of u guys miss me lorhs.
MUAHAHAHA.
keep pressing me to update blog.
hees. i didnt know my blog was so popular. X333

well well.
OP ENDED TODAY!!!! hees.
so happy larhs. jus dat the 3 mods are like.
hmmm. so fierce.
HAHAHAHAHA.
den MR TONG came in halfway too!!
so sian diao sia. LOL.
oh ya. my QnA screwed up too.
hees.
argh... anything. dun wanna think abt it liaos.

watched HORROR movies with des kp n van today.
es n ray joined halfway. hees.
halfway through the first movie.
JU-ON 2. LOLOLOLOLOL.
laughed like mad when watching it. hees.
was like thinking.
OMG. wad if YAH MUI appeared on the screen. HAHAHAHA.
des was like. if it really appears.
den we'll all be dead. and i'll kill u first b4 we get killed by Kayako.
X33333 so FUNNY can. LOLOL.
cant stop laughing sia.

den watched SHUTTER. ok.
i mean. we watched it more SERIOUSLY. hahaha.
den dere was this scene where the guy keep running down a flight of stairs.
budden always stuck at storey 4
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.
den i said, "hey des. isnt ur hse at the 4th storey???"
WUAKAKAKAKAKA. think i sounded evil. hees.
des was like looking at me with murderous intent. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
SO FUNNY!!!!! and oh ya. she scolded F*** hais...

den left only me kp van n ray to watch scary movie 3.
it totally made NO SENSE. -.-
hmmm. budden think JU-ON 2 was worse. HAHAHAHA.
it was funny thou. REALLY LAME. -.-

LOL. think everyone in my class finish OP liaos.
hees. so happy sia. MUAHAHAHAHA.
budden still have loads of HW to do. hais..

going chinatown tml.
for the MAGIC stuff.
so hafta send Boon Wei some stuff tonight.
hais.. so it means work again
LOLOLOL. really feel like slacking sia. HAHAHA.

now really looking forward to the nov 7 outing. hees.
morn having k with des they all.
den afternoon meeting up zy. hees.
bei n ws oso can join us early lorhs.
MUAHAHAHA. if not only for dinner. kinda saddening eh?
HEES.

ooh ya!!! the tags. hees.
Paiseh.
no need reply der la hors?
hees. i kinda lazy lorhs. HAHAHAHAHA.
hope tml wont spend too much $$ hees.

p.s. looking forward to a treat from des too!!! X333

Takkaire guys. hees.