pointofNORETURN

lalala~
currently.
i;m walking down on the road of no RETURN
i jus sent a msg to CO's pres.
telling her i'm gonna withdraw from performing in next year's concert.
current status:
in wait of her reply.
*although i dun really care wad she replies. i'm still not gng for practices*

this post was made possible.
cos of khia peng. hees. she wanted to read my posts so badly.
X333. gan dong neh~
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

thanks bei. dede. van. n khia peng.
XD
for helping make this decision today.
although it was like me who kind fo persuaded bei that i shd withdraw.
hees. she didnt agree with me initially.
in de end. i PERSUADED her to do so. X333
so actually it was khia peng who really enlightned me.
hees.
真不愧是最有远见的人。
LOLOLOLOL. thanks loads.
BEI oso of cos larh. haha. for supporting me. XD
if not i wouldnt have dat much the courage to do so. X33
THANKS DEDE OSO XDD
although u kept singing when i was typing the msg. XDDD it was kinda OFF TUNE. hees.

and oh ya.
spoilt my hp pouch today.
BUT U MANAGED TO FIX IT BACK OK?
I'M SUCH A GENIUS. I CANT STAND IT. X333
well well.
why did i spoil my pouch?
cos i felt so.... hmmm.. QI GEK when i came to know smth.
oh well.
coming to think of it, i was kinda childish. HAHA.
budden i was really qi lorhs.
hais.. nvm ba. hees.
I'M A VERY UNDERSTANDING PERSON.

today ws keep suan-ing me lorhs.
if it was the old me he would sure have died v jia lat-ly liaos
HAHAHAHAHA.
count him lucky. XD

went to buy a planner today at kino. XD
it was so ex lorhs. ><
17 bucks. LOLOL.
but it was CUTE. X333
WINNIE THE POOH. MUAHAHAHAHA.
wanted to buy ELMO ders.
budden it was the last one ler. den was kidna torn n tattered. LOL
oh well.
fan zheng it was nice. XD

i'm now so engaged in playing tetris. HEES.
my CHILDHOOD game. MUAHAHA
I'M STILL SO PRO IN IT. HEEES.

hao la. haha.
dede's finding me boring ler.
better go chat with her. hees.
buaiis. TAKKAIRE!!~

whatdeHELListhePROBLEM?

ok people.
i'm not trying to be like discrimating foreigners.
but seriously.
i dun understand the mentality of them.

almost everyone's bloging abt the issue.
some trying to nullify the whole tension.
some adding fuel to the tension.
well.
wad will i do?
i'm not very sure myself.
called dede few days back.
cos the stupid mic in my com wont work. -.-
she said that we shdnt give in to them.
cos they are being very communist right now.

most ridiculous thing i;ve ever heard.
afraid of children to such the extent that when asked u have to raise ur hand as if they're gng to break off?
oh man.
pls larh.
and of cos.
i know that sylvia's having a hard time too.
but seriously.
i'm kinda pissed off this time.
it's not because ur sitting on the fence.
but cos u said that you dun like kids too. -.-
yea i think u raised ur hands too right?
den why the hell did u even sign up for KIDSREAD?
DONT U HATE THEM?
now. pls. stop contradicting urself.
stop being so idealistic.
it'm impossible to make friends with everyone.
but be rest assured.
i wont be hating u.
jus a lil bothered by u.

yea.
so wad's the situation right now?
the class's SPLITING.
oh well.
split it all u want.
i'm already prepared not to commit myself to this class.
it's not like i'll die not talking to the PRCs.
i've lived for lile 15 years not talking to them
so it's not really tough for me.
IT'S EASY FOR ME TO TAKE PPL AS 透明 DE.
i'm NOT being unreasonable ok?
it's not that
"oh. cos the PRCs want to do SPCA. so i 故意 want to 唱反调。"
i'm jus pissed off because.
u all are FORCING ur WANTS on us.
its not FAIR.

this's gonna be a long post.
so be prepared.

ok now.
i shall drop the issue on the stupid class segregating stuff.
bei yst finally let go off the meaningless love.
well.
i'm seriously happy for her.
although i know it's still gng to take some time for her to recover.
at least.
U WILL RECOVER.
i'm sure of that. x))

and also.
pls stop thinking that u are v flippant.
u are NOT. ok?
cos u put in true love to each relationship.
and that makes u GREAT.
cos it's definitely tough for u to let go each and every one of it.
so yea.
BE STRONG!!
go build some muscles and ta-da.
a new you will be born. X33

well.
i'm now getting the hint that someone else likes her too. XDDD
yea. i'm kinda slow. T_T
cos it seems to me that des ray n ws all know abt it lers.
WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME?
RAHHH~ oh well.
however. it seems to me that everything's repeating itself.
hais...
i'm not sure wad to do.
it's always at this point of time. why?
手心是肉，手背也是肉
it's gonna be impossible for u to let go of her now.
but.
ARGH. i want to stop this. eh-to.
"viscious cycle" of her love life.
ARGH~~
although i cant really make decisions for her.
jus to caution u.
if u really love her.
and she accepts u.
DUN EVER DARE TO LET HER DROP EVEN ONE TEAR.
i promise to 五马分尸 u.
cos u are MY FRIEND. and she's my BEST FRIEND.
i'll KILL u.

nevertheless.
i'll wish u good luck. XD

and oh yea!!
i found des's weakness!!!
ARHHHH~~~~
i cant help but laugh. X3333
such a cute weakness that she has. AHAHAHAHAHA.
ok larh. hees.
jus let me laugh again.
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

suddenly.
i missed dede, mh, yj and yl.
ok larh.
mian qiang de. choo oso.
argh...
really wanna meet u all up soon
wanna rmb the times we had in that GREAT class.
and not this SHITTY class of mine now. -.-

ok?
oh ya.
get skype XDD
we'll talk online. hees.
takkaire den.

wad'sHAPPENING?

hey guys. XD
it's kinda late now lers.
but i just reached home. hees.
went to queensway again.
LOLOLOLOL.
to place order for the class tee.
OMGOMG. so happy lorhs
we FINALLY have one. XDDD

CIP was like.
supposed to bond the class tgt der lorhs.
budden it seemed to cause an even worse segregation in the class.
hais...
now that the china students formed the 鹤帮。
it seemed to have totally drew a clear line to separate them from us.
they seems to be like.
dont really like us.
but i dun really understand why
i dont think i did things that annoyed them?
hais.. maybe i did. i'm not very sure myself.
but i dont feel really good to stay in a class that's so separated.
this is the first time ever that i felt this DISUNITED.
ARGH. dere seems to be nothing i can do abt it thou.
shall not think too much.
hees. will cause me to age v quickly. XDDD

magic jacket.
really wanted one.
but it's so EX. 50 BUCKS eh!! can buy 10 comics lorhs.
HAHAHAHAHA.
hafta really consider if it's worth the $$ =X

had a really great talk with bei today.
it led me to understand lotsa things.
and also, people.
hees. really fortunate to have u as a friend. XDD
LURVE EUU. <33
XDDD
dont think abt it too much. =D
cos u can only think of me!!~ MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
jia you wor~
i'll zhi chi u in everything u do. X33

oh ya!!
today yvette so ke lian lorhs.
HAHAHA.
got bullied by a kid. hais..
suay sia. LOL.
we were like eating our dinner in the Queensway shopping mall.
den suddenly, a kid spitted on her. from the second story.
-.- IT'S SO DARN DISGUSTING CAN. OMG.
zhen shi mei jiao yang eh. dat kid.
den when khia peng found the kid and confronted his dad.
his dad was like.
oh. tell ur friend i'm sorry.
but dere's nothing much that i can do. -.-'''
HE DOESNT EVEN TRY TO GET HIS SON TO DAO QIAN LA.
tian arh.
how uncivilised s'poreans can be?
wo kuai feng le. HAHAHAHAHA

all in all.
yvette's jus plain SUAY. HAHAHA

hees
TAKKAIRE KAYS?
hahaha.
niites. X33

KAWAII-mummy

heya!!
LOL. so wu liao dao...
decided to post again. hees.
ever since i got my laptop.
i seemed to be so active in posting. HAHA
dat's good isnt it? hees.
actually supposed to be doing PW ders.
compiling the FAQ. hees.

today CO was hmm. fine.
was able to go for the GAMMA hse function for a while.
XDDD. still happy abt it. XD
the food was nice. HEES.
ESP WHEN DERE'S FISHBALLS.
MUAHAHAHA.
budden had to leave halfway through the movie
hais.. was a lil sad. the movie was so funny. XDDD

today was late again. hees.
took my dad's ride to sch. WUAKAKAKA.
cos he shun lu send my mom to work ma.
haha.
den my mom was like
"今天又是因爲不要跑步啊？"
LOLOLOLOL.
zhen shi de.
i have such a bad reputation mehs? HAHAHA

most funny thing today.
just happened not too long ago.
my mom came into my room to chat with me.
den...
my bro came back.

so my mom asked. "今天买的马票呢？"
den my bro handed her the 4D tickets.

"啊？没有全打啊？" means something like buying all the possible permuatations of the no. she bought.

den my bro: "har? 你有叫我全打meh? 又没有写在纸上。"

den my mom SCREAMED. "ARGH!!!!!!!!! 如果全打的话就中beh-sai了eh!! [the consolation i think]"

den... my dad arrives in my room too!! LOL. whole family sia. hees.
"什么事？大喊大叫的。"

"都是你女儿害的咯。不要早去学校，还我不能自己去买马票。现在不但没得拿$60，还得要还gorgor的钱。"

den i was like. "har? 又关我什么屁事？是你自己没有写清楚"

den she say.
"你啦。害到我要早起。然后就blurblur的。没有写清楚。"

i lame diao lo. LOL.
she continues.
"还好只是中beh-sai啊。不然的话就一粒PONG下去。"

LOL la. hahahahahaha.
laugh until i cannot lorhs
how come my mom so cute de?
HAHAHAHAHA
笑死我了。
WUAKAKAKAKA.

LURVES my mummy. <3333
Takkaire wor~
hees.
Sayonara.

comeON. RANTitout!

hiies!!
well well.
actually today didnt wanted to blog ders.
budden kan dao lapkan so bu kai xin.
so decided to hmmm.
help him fa xie in this blog post.
LOLOLOLOL.
zhen xiang bu dao he can be so sheng qi lorhs
he seems to be really unhappy abt Lib exco.
well.
i personally think that they have some probs too.
after listening to wad lapkan said.

ok now.
here's the post specially for LAPKAN.
hees. see i so good. MUAHAHAHA
anyways.
here's his rantings:

To those conflicting ppl

It is so bu yao lian lo for you all.
to keep smiling with each other n acting to be friendly
when at the same point backstabbing other ppl..
well..
its idiotic as much as I tink!
If u wanna hate or dislyk some1 so much tt u wanna kill him..
just shout at him or give him a punch or wadsoever la..
its so irritating to tok behind other ppl de back..
i dun care wad u all re thinking
but I find it no point to gossip all abt n later trying to be nice to some1..
n since now u make mi enter the battlefield I shall not be a pushover..
i m nt gotta sit dere n get scolded without reply..
i will make sure that I wun let u have a good time either..
i v seldom fa pi qi but let mi tell u tis time I m really serious
and I m not going to take a step back.
I appreciate those who try 2 defend mi..
i wun let myself lian lei u anymore liao..
i m gotta defend myself n put up my own stand.
Its pointless to be neutral in front of gossipers lyk u all so dun expect mi to be nice..

i m NOT slack I remind u again.
even if I m sometimes for some reason for not attending meetings I got my reasons..
not lyk no life ppl who keep thinking of other ppl’s fault n mistake.
All the things I do I feel no need to show it to u..
u have no right to keep interfering in my business anwe..
esp when u re nt doing a good job either..
so just shut your mouth and conc on ur own!
Only useless people keep putting a nose into other ppl de matter..
if since even she nv sae anything and she support mi..
u all have no right to say anything.
I oso nv interfere in ur business but u bu zhi xiu chi de disturb mi..
its UNFORGIVABLE..
wadever I do I dun haf to report to u all..
dun tink I m gotta listen to u lyk ur slave cos I m obviously.
If all of u wanna carry out,
I dun care but since u make mi enter the conflicts I shall not be a pushoever..
u all make mi flame for the 1st time of my life..
cos I hate troublemakers!!

---------ends------------

LOL. seriously sia.
u are really mad liaos.
haha.
budden NVM!!
i ZHI CHI u!!
MUAHAHAHA.
scold them or BITE them wadever u want
hees.
no need to gu zhe your xing xiang.
haha.
JIA YOU ba. XD
dun give up neh~ hees.
GAMBATEH!!!!

atleastEVERYTHING'Sover

konbanwa~
heh..
the previous two posts seemed to cause quite a commotion.
hees. pai sei wor. =X

well.
i was really pissed off yst larh.
cannot blame me.
and yea.
cried quite badly over it.
budden arh.
jus realised dat after crying...
i'm fine liao lers.
jus dat still a lil bu shuang when i see him.
RAHH~

we're gng to finish PW le lorhs.
now over this whole issue arh.
quite sure that the whole team had fallen apart liaos.
hais...
budden nvm larh. haha
since jus another 2 weeks everything would be over lers.
HAHAHAHAHA. so happy sia. XDD


today des and kp "scolded" him kinda badly.
surprisingly.
i didnt even say a word. HAHA.
well.
i didnt even bother to look him in the eyes lo.
makes me sick. -.-
hahaha.
i just kept my cool. XD
apparantly,
he decided not to say anything.
for wad reasons?
i dont even bother to want to know.
LOL. jus knowing that he's not gng to DO ANYTHING BAI CHI can le.

now arh.
des's so frustrated with yu cheng.
he seemed to have only sprained his ankle. not broke it.
phew. xia si wo le. LOL.
budden arh.
seriously.
i'm really wondering what's happening to him.
depression? it doesnt seem to be so eh.
ARGH. dun even know of he's gonna be present tml lorhs.
zhen shi de.
he always tells des dat he'll be in sch TML.
but that TML never arrives. HAHAHAHA.

went to queenstown jus now.
pei yvette, angelina kp n des to check out the prices for the class tee.
LOL. finally eh?
we're gng to have one!! haha.
not too late larh. still can wear it next year. hees.
den oso shun bian check for MAGIC's jacket.
the design aiysha did was SUPERB lorhs.
budden think it's gonna be a lil tough to have the whole design on the jacket.
hmmm. i'll try to find some ways to get it done. XD
the first shop we asked was like 50+ bucks lorhs.
seems to be a lil too ex liaos.
haha. the other one was better. maybe arnd 30-40bucks?
hmmm. budden the shop owner wasnt really sure if the design can be imprinted onto it.
ARGH~~
i really want it. ><

anyways.
suan le.
wanna go play mahjong n sing k with yj n yl sometime. XD
I MISS DEDE N MH OSO!!!
hais.. really want to see them soon. =D

i'll definitely make this wish come true.
deng zhe ba. XDDDD

Takkaire wors~~ =D

DAMN IT

damn it.
damn it.
damn it.
DAMN IT.

i cant help but keep crying la.
thinking abt all my efforts and time spent on it being lang fei diao.
JUST LIKE THAT.
read bei's blog le.
even further WORSENED my crying.
i feel so useless.
crying over it.

now i cant even go outside n enjoy my food.
sure kena laughing by my bro.
-.-
feel so qi gek now.
the most i can do is jus to force my tears back.
but it doesnt seem to be working.



WTH LA!!!
u had better pay me back my time and efforts.



ARGH!!~ QI SI WO LE.
YAO FENG LE.
make me so diu lian now.
U're THE WORST I"VE EVER SEEN
BASTARD.

iamsoSPEECHLESS

this is my 100th post.
and i'm so SAD to WASTE IT JUS LIKE THAT.
but right now.
ANGER's really BURNING within me.
你不仁就别怪我不义。
i seriously cannot understand how some people think.

TO ZHELUN:
yea yea. okok.
i dun really care if u REALLY mind dat MUCH abt us lying in PW.
tell teachers if u want.
but firstly.
i'm already sure that ms cai knew it all along that we're lying.
so what u're doing is REDUNDANT.
i'm not sure what caused u to be SO adamant about exposing our lie.
maybe it's the church that u jus went?
den u felt guilty all of a sudden?
I DUN CARE.
i only know that.
if ms cai decided to report us.
I CONFIRM THAT U WILL NOT HAVE AN EASY TIME IN SCHOOL ANYMORE.
this is a delcaration.
撕破脸了我也不管。
so what about ur so called righteousness.
i only know that what u did will cause all of our hard work to do down the drain.
AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE U FOR THAT.
it's not that GRADE that i care about.
but all the late nights i have stayed up to do it.
all the hard work i've put in.
i can tell u RIGHT NOW.
if u still think that u did the most for the project.
i can be very de 不要脸 and tell u dat U ARE NOT.
BUT I AM ok?
at the very least.
DESIREEN KHIA PENG AND MAYBE EVEN YU CHENG DID MORE THAN WHAT U DID.
i'm seriously fuming now.
what u jus did.
jus made me feel that christians doesnt use their brain.
WHAT U DID.
IS VERY VERY SELFISH.
i do not mean the say that all christians are like that.
jus that SOME ARE.
and U ARE LIKE THAT.
defame? yea. maybe dat's wad i jus did.
but cant u jus THINK?
if u doesnt feel good abt lying.
i can understand.
cos not many will feel good abt it.
cant u jus feel remorseful and repent AFTER eveything ends?
everything's gonna end in jus 2 weeks time.
and u have to RUIN it NOW.
not earlier when we still have time to change.
but NOW. when everything cannnot be changed anymore.
when WR was already handed in.
do u think that confessing will change anything?
WHAT THE HELL ARE U ACTUALLY THINKING.
u this SELFISH BEING.

yea yea.
i maybe sued for this post.
but if i dun let it out.
我就对不起自己。
i will go crazy keeping it within my heart.
so.
jus be prepared.
even if everything turns out fine.
dont expect me to forgive u.

title? wakarenai.

yoYOyo~~
today.
was the long awaited gathering. hees.
so long nv see zhi ying le.
missed her so much sia. haha.
really had a great talk today. XDD

jeremy also with us today. haha.
brought his skates along. LOL.
budden didnt really had a chance to skate arnd.
so pai sei. haha
dun get too upset with ur results kayys?
at least u had 2 As. haha.
grats for it. =D

kept playing arcade today.
cos of van. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
insists that she wanna play para para.
den keep ngiao-ing me lorhs.
cant stand it sia. hahahaha.
in de end went to arcade 3 times lo.
she still never got the chance to play it.
LOLOLOLOLOLO.
cos of some pros down dere dat keeps playing. haha
hao ba.
next time pei u go play kayys? hees.
see i so good sia. MUAHAHAHA.

HAD AJISEN FOR DINNER TODAY!!!~
hees. so GAO XING lo. haha
LOVED AJISEN. haha.
Spicy miso ramen~ hees.
never tried eating it with so many people before.
haha. budden loved talking to the people at my table.
hees. had a really fun talk. XDD

gor talked until halfway suddenly yan jing fan lei.
said he had gastric pain.
budden dunno if it was b'cos we talked about his past.
hmmmm.
he's so secretive abt it lorhs.
budden really la.
haha. my da ge's a really good guy. MUAHAHA.
although i like to bicker with him a lot. hees.
fun marhs. MUAHAHA

oh yarh.
thanks zhi ying for insisting that me n van needs people escortion to get home.
den oso.
my da ge. who kept offering to send us home.
thanks jeremy too. XDD
LOLOLOLOLO.
pai sei hors. haha. keep rejecting ur good will. XPP
it was kinda diu lian lorhs.
LOLOLO.
make until we like really lu chi.
hahaha.
i didnt mi lu this time can.
haha. XDD
i managed to figure the road home. SOMEHOW. haha
budden the road home was kinda scary.
haha.
felt a lil scared while walking. hees.

anyways.
had a really fun time today.
thanks neh~ haha.
specially to zhi ying.
must enjoy urself in Shandong orh~ =DDD
hees.
oso. MUST bring souvenirs back hor. XDD
Takkaire of urself. :)

omgOMGomg!!

hey yo. MUAHAHA.
today.
i skipped PE.
i gu yi tell my mom dat i wanna go sch late.
cos i was tired.
from staying up to arnd 2 to do I&R.
den.
on the way dere.
saw the guys running along the same old route.
den my mom was like.
"chey. 我看你是不想跑步才要迟到的咯。"
i tio stunned.
yuan lai my mom UNDERSTOOD me so well sia. HAHAHA
den as usual. my dad started.
"再不运动就要变更肥了。"
and seriously.
i HATE this sentence man. -.-

bei today didnt come sch.
cos she yst practically didnt sleep at all.
so pei fu sia. haha.
ws oso stayed up. SURPRISINGLY lo. haha

oh ya. today yucheng sent us a sms.
he broke his ankle.
i seriously dunno how to react.
but my first instict reaction was like.
OMG.
he was sent to the hospital.
so think it was kinda serious.
i can imagine the pain la.
i was like. "OMG. it hurts." when i read the msg.
hahaha.
now we hafta change our script for the skit lers.
cos dun think yucheng's ankle will heal by OP.
hmmm. so now thinking of ways to let him act, while not needing him to walk.
see. i so ti tie lo. hahaha.

today's OP rehearsal was. hmmm.
ok lorhs. although i think i did better for this time.
I DIDNT USE CUECARDS LORHS.
muahaha. so proud of it sia. XD
presented in front of another grp doing Tesla.
was kinda nervous thou. scared of their qns.
in the end, they didnt ask any. (phew)
instead. the teacher asked.
he wanted either me or kp to volunteer lorhs.
i was like so reluctant la.
den kp almost volunteered herself....
when... des called my name. -.-
LOLOL. kinda like bei xian hai.
in the end i ans like shit lah.
zhen shi diu lian dao jia.

hais....
presented our skit in front of other for the first time today.
it was kinda good. jus dat i missed yucheng.
haha. kinda miss him for being the door.
he's so professional. HAHAHAHA.

bei today so shuang lo.
went for shopping. ><
den diu wo yi ge ren at sch. T_T
hais.. shop until so shuang le still complain no one help her hold things.
-.- zhuo ren yao zhi zu.
hahaha.
I SHALL GO SHOPPING SOMETIMES SOON!!
I SWEAR!! RAHH~~

hope yucheng can recover soon. =D
minna-san~
ALL THE BEST FOR PW!!~~ XDD
gambateh neh~
and oh ya.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY. JAYMIE. <33

watashiwaZENZENwakarenai

k box!!
LOLO.
seemed to be gng to k box v frequent nowadays.
haha. cannot help it.
fell in love with my own voice.
MUAHAHA.

not many people went thou.
mainly was just to meet up with jeremy.
haha. wei siong came too. XD
haha. keep teasing him sia.
so farnie. HAHAHA.

des said she had quite a serious cough and flu.
but i dun really believe it sia.
still sing until so nice.
zhen shi qi ren.
yea. but she really does have a bad flu.
can ting de chu from her voice.
haha. budden she really sing well eh.
OMG. zhen shi wang chen mo ji. haha.

dat yu han so irritating.
keep laughing when i sing.
RAHH~
i'm not dere to entertain de can?
qi si wo le. zhen shi shou bu liao.

suddenly jus realised dat everyone can sing so well.
hais..
MUST GO PRACTICE liaos. hahaha.
esp jeremy lo.
although he cant biao the high notes.
budden still sing v well.
he n des la.
keep ba zhan-ing the MIC. RAHH~
ws was like so bored dere.
gomen neh~ hees.
hahaha. budden glad to see him again. XDD

dun wanna watch Tian Ji Suan liaos.
cos of my mom. -.-
zhen shi de. spoil everything sia.
told me dat my dear Chen Hao Min gonna be a bad guy.
sian lo.
dun wanna him be bad guy.
hais.. so dun wan watch liao.
if not later spoil his image la.
zhen shi de. =.=

anyways. jia you guys. XD
and bei.
dun worry so much.
everything will work out fine.

today bei wasnt really her normal self.
i shdnt be so duo guan xian shi la.
budden really lo.
hurts me to see her breaking down.
stunned so many ppl dere.
hais...
but really lo.
wad's wrong with her bf.
such a lame excuse oso can xiang de chu.
so drama la. sian.
hope bei can get over it soon.
and also. solve the whole problem.

funFUNfun!!

heyo~
today was kind fun. haha.
went to marina sq.
hees. went dere like only once b4 lo.
so decided to go there today. haha.
to guang guang.
with bei n yu han.
haha.

initially dun even know where to go lorhs.
jus met up at Sengkang int.
den jus hopped onto a train.
with no destination in mind.
LOLOLOL.
after long long discussion.
finally jue ding drop at dhouby.
haha.
den went to marina sq.
hees.

in the end didnt buy anything.
cos it felt kinda weird lorhs.
having a guy to follow u when shopping.
keep worrying dat he'll get bored.
haha.
so it was kinda gan ga. haha.
after dat he went to buy movie tics.
den me n bei shopped. haha.
only bei bought smth.
yea. a pencil box.
haha. finally. SHE BOUGHT ONE.

went to watch Brothers.
MIAO QIAO WEI GOT ACT EH!!
LOLOLO.
LOVE TO SEE HIM ACT LA.
haha.
cos he's super duper shuai can.
haha. so KEWL!!~
haha. going crazy liaos.
budden de show was kinda disturbing oso.
i was like writhing in pain la.
when seeing the characters in pain.
LOLOLOLO.
huang ri hua oso got act.
he's still as handsome as ever can. LOL.
it's a nice movie. haha.
although i dont really understand the ending. hees.

the finale of today's outing.
the TRIP TO GEYLANG.
hahaha.
sounds so shan gui.
haha. budden really eh.
da kai yen jie sia. haha
went to eat chong qing huo guo.
it's tasty. really. haha.
jus dat one of the soup base was kinda.
er-hem. SPICY. lol.
budden it's still nice. MUAHAHA.
LOVED THE SAUSAGE DERE.
haha.

yu han was really gentleman lo.
unlike some "others"
LOLOLO.
helped us to peel prawns.
even though he doesnt eat it.
it was kinda tang eh.
he seemed to have scalded his hand.
hais.. he can be kinda stubborn
haha. XDD

most funny thing is.
he brought us to go look look arnd geylang.
den saw really lotsa them lo.
haha. even saw one uncle asking price sia.
hahaha.

den took taxi home.
die lo. cant even ren lu.
haha. make the taxi uncle go circles. haha.
zhen shi pai sei. LOL.
in de end bei dropped first. -.-
hais..
so i was left with the job to FORCEFULLY MAKE YU HAN accept $$
hahahaha.
if not feel so bad sia.
he's so scary la. dun wan accept the $$.
haha.
in the end jus drop the $$ at his seat.
den say bye.
den got off the car le.
LOLOLOLOL.

anyways.
it was fun today.
haha.
Takkiare neh~

iamSUPERhuman

hey people.
i'm fine now.
really.
hahaha. fast eh?
cos i'm super. MUAHAHAHA

eating sweet things really cheers people up.
come to think of it.
i've been eating quite many chocs nowadays.
haha.
eating FROSTIES now.
feel so high.
haha.

chatting on MSN with ray bei n van.
abt the welfare board.
decided to use anime series as the styles.
MUAHAHAHA.
my FORTE. hahahaha.
yea. we left daryl out of the discussion.
in the end hai dao ray got blasted by him.
feel kinda bad for him.
cos it's like our fault la.
for gu yi dun inform him.

well.
ray's now having a conv with him
telling him about why we keep excluding him
i really jus feel like calling him and blasting at him la.
although there's a high chance that i'll get blasted too.
feeling so pissed off now.
wanna tan pai with him de.
in de end ray says that things will get ugly.
so he's gonna be the mediator n call him.
so sian la.

he's trying hard to change.
but i cant see it.
maybe it's cos i'm already too biased against him
ok. take it that he's trying hard to change.
but if he doesnt do drastic things to SHOW that he've changed.
nothing will change.
hope that he'll take a better turn next year.
if not,
not only he will be the one suffering.
we will be suffering too.

iamWEIRD

this is so irritating.
i'm getting so irritated.
by school. -.-
why cant they just let us off?
RAHH~
i just wanna concentrate on PW.
although i HATE it.
but it's at least better den having lessons.

shuo dao lessons.
reminds me of yesterday's chem lec.
die le.
sure going to get scolded by mr tan liaos.
cos practically the whole class skipped the lec.
den suay suay they took attendance.
only ONE in the whole class went la.
sian. it would not have been dat bad if none went.
LOLOLOLOL.

i was kinda weird today.
high le den got kinda depressed.
den high again.
den depress again.
weird hur. LOL. i cant help me.
i aint myself these few days.

beside me.
there's this thing called AMINO ACID TUT.
wad the hell is dat?
i'm not too sure myself.
but i know i have to finish it.
if not tml's scolding sure worst.
hais.. zhen shi de.

one good news.
that is.
DES gonna stay in TJ!!
omg. so happy la. haha.
she was swayed by her CLL results. haha.
CLL wan sui!! haha.
budden it's only a temp stay.
only until when she's being accepted by NACEL(?) LOL
i'm fine with dat.
cos at least she's pursuing her dream.
hees.
jus plain happy cos she's still dere to fa hua chi with me.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

i'm lots better now.
just that i'm still unable to face myself.
unable to honestly ans qns like "are u feeling better?"
i'm not used to having so many people concerning abt me.
i'm only used to concern about ppl.
my life had been too smooth sailing.
so smooth to the point that..
i knew i wont be able to handle any obstacles in the future.
like now.
i'm such a failure..

worried. yes. iDOhavetimeslikethat

really not in the mood now to be happy n high.
in actual fact.
i'm not really happy right now.
i'm unable to laugh like i have always wanted.
always trying to show people that i'm cheerful always.
but i'm still a human.
and human do have times when they are weak.

and yes.
right now.
i'm worried for my promos.
it's kinda late now.
since i've already gotten back my results.
it's too late to have any regrets.
but the problem now is.
i'm not being regretful.
i just dunno how to face myself.
jus confused with the FIRST ever worried feeling that i had.
this is the VERY FIRST TIME..
that i became worried with my results.
FIRST TIME. in 17 years.
things have always worked out smoothly for me.
maybe thats the reason why i'm confused.

i am not worried about unable to promote.
since there's this very wonderful thing called Poly in s'pore
maybe this is stress?
i'm not very sure of it myself.
being surrounded by people who get all those great grades.
made me feel THIS inferior to them.
i'm CERTAINLY ashamed of myself.
blaming others for the own mistake i made.
i'm being so disgraceful now.
it's so disgusting to know myself being such a lousy person.

i feel so BAD towards my parents.
somehow.
i feel that i'm responsible for getting goood grades.
but with the kind of grades now.
i'm sure they are going to get SO DISSAPOINTED WITH ME.
it seems that i've been taking good grades for granted.
this promo have certainly woke me up from this dream.
it maybe a lil too late now..
wonder why tears kept flowing out.
cant seem to be able to stop it.
i'm feeling so disgusted by myself.

this post is only meant for me to speak up my thoughts.
dont tell me to be not worried.
cos it's impossible.
dont show any care or concern.
cos with my state of mind now,
i'll probably take it as being hypocritic.
i dont wish to spoil the image of the real u in my mind.
so, pls understand.
i'll be fine very SOON.
i promise.
so act as nothing happened.
act as u have never read this post.
i'll deeply sppreciate it.
Thanks for those who tries to console me.
although it's a lil futile.
but still. thanks for your kind thoughts.
i need to calm down for now. ALONE.

Takkaire guys.

i'mFORreal

=_____=
i'm so pissed of right now.
i just typed a whole load of mushy stuff.
to encourage des and kp.
in the end, dunno wad i pressed.
deleted the whole thing.
and i cant get it back.
-.-

so anyway.
i'm going to keep it short.
just the main point.
that is...
DUN EVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF
cos it's not in anyway beneficial to you.
or to others who have been trying hard to stand by your side.
it is only a cowardly way of avoiding problems

in any case.
if u all are really bent on withdrawing,
i'll definitely stand by u.
cos i'm sure that we are all be able to decide what's best for us.
and we have no position to decide for others.
we can only believe and support them.
we eventually have to decide on how we are going to live our own life.

it's not a shame to rely on others when u need it.
and it's unfair to think that no one can help u.
everyone will be able to help in their own way.
cheer you up with super lame jokes.
lend you a shoulder to cry on.
lend you their ears to hear your rantings.
lend you their stomach to go on an eating spree with u.
just look around,
and we'll always able to find people who are reaching their hands out for u.

although i may be living in a different world with u all.
but at least i'm sure that i'm always willing to help u out.
when you are tired.
when you are stressed.
when you are sad.

so yea ok?
i'm always available.
no boyfriend. [that's kinda sad thou.]
so available 24/7
dun worry about waking me up in a middle of the sleep.
that is IF i am able to wake up for that call.
LOL. no worries. XD

so yea.
feeling lost is part and parcel of life.
just find people who will stand by u and get you back on track.
everything's gonna be fine. =D
i maybe a lil to mushy.
but that's alright. XD
so ya.
Takkaire neh~

ENDofEXAMS!! sadORhappy?

hiies!! minna-san.
long time no see eh?
haha.
cos jose san was busy studying for the DEAR PROMOS.
yea. i did ok.
although still kinda slack.
BUDDEN I DID STUDY FOR IT!!

however.
i really dun have MUCH confidence in it.
hais..
i SHOULD be able to pass la.
according to my senior.
who's like say HOW IMPOSSIBLE it is to FAIL it.
oh well~ people just DO right. yea. PEOPLE DO.
okayys. no hidden meaning in it.
I AM HARMLESS.

well..
to be truthful.
i'm not THAT happy as i thought i would BE after promos.
cos there's still dat DARN useless PW thinggy going on.
-_______-
WO SHOU GOU LE!!
being burdened by it for like almost a year now.
so tiring la.
losing interest~~ haha

paradise will only start when OP ends.
announcing an END to the whole PW stuff.
wuakakakaka.
i'll go bonkers after that. LOL.
looking forward to that day neh~
hees. it's SOON already. few more weeks to suffer.
den we shall all be released!!~ haha.

Oh ya. today was like crapping in room 420 with van, des and bei.
ALTHOUGH we WERE supposed to be doing our PW. haha.
budden it's like right after 1230,
MORE den HALF of the class is GONE la. haha. do oso no point.
in de end, we started talking about Vampire Knight.
like how it's being so sensual and giving ppl the wrong idea.
haha. and oso how shuai the characters are.
haha.
IN DE END......
I REALISE THAT I LIKE KANAME MORE.
haha. i was like bothered by that qn for dunno how long la.
keep thinking who exactly do i like more.
haha.
lame eh? no choice. haha.

finally.
i finished my EoM.
finished with the troublesome CITATIONS.
zhen shi de.
so ma fan la. fan si ren le.
haha. budden at least i finished it. hees.
oh ya.
Thanks jia haur for helping me print it. XD
i know mine's kinda much. haha. Hontoni Arigato neh.
haha.
Jia you with your eom ba. hees.

Hafta go for my beauty sleep le.
hees. Takkaire guys.
We shall play till we drop after PW ends.
Look forward to it ba. XD