Hard. not to cry.

all of a sudden.
i'm booked for the whole week.
for something i didnt really expect.

my uncle jus passed away.
he was only 40 this year.
the exact reason for his death.
was unexpected.

he was always the nonsensical one among all the relatives.
always cracking lame jokes.
all of a sudden.
he leaves. just like that.
i didnt even get to see him before he went away.
it's been 3 months since i last saw him.
i really didnt want our first meeting after suuch a long time.
to be the last meeting.

he was a really nice uncle.
he was still so young.
he jus had a 6 mth old baby girl.
and a 16 year old son that really need him.
his 14 year old daughter still needs his love.
how can he jus leave liddat?

i tot i would cry.
cos when i heard de news.
i was. totally. stunned.
didnt know how to react.

still unable to accept the fact that he left.
tot he would still come laughing and talking while walking to the living room.
tot that he's outside golf-ing with my dad and other uncles.

even after i see his body.
i jus really wished that this was all a terrible dream.
a dream that i would eventually wake up from.

oh well.
suan lers.
the dead cant be revived.
i know it.
and i'll try to accept it.
i try to smile while sending him off.

and oh ya.
really psps hors.
bei ws and jeremy.
last min cannot go for the movie trip with u all.
i really wanted to watch HERO with u all.

i'm oso really sorry towards boon wei ray n syl.
cos i cant go for the mon training.
know that it'll somehow cause some inconvenience.
gomen-neh. ><

hao bahs.
hafta go down again lers.
the next post may not be soon.

Takkaire guys.
smile more and cherish the fact that u're living. XD